A moody day

Some days are filled with mountains and valleys, or big feelings as we label it for our son.  Today was one of those days.

I started my morning with meeting a friend for coffee.  We met to exchange some English books, which is always in short supply here.  As we chatted over our hot beverages, time flew by.  Suddenly, we realized that 2 and a half hours had passed.  It was so nice to just sit and discuss a long list of things without restraint of language barriers or technical difficulties.  I left our meeting feeling light and carefree. 

After our coffee, I went home to find an empty house.  My husband had taken our son to Toshimaen for some fun daddy/son time.  I assessed what I wanted to get done in their absence and decided to head to the garden to plant some beans.

Upon arrival, I found all of my tomato and cucumber babies were dead.  I was so angry!  I am diligently following a website that details when to plant seeds indoors and transition them to the outdoor garden.  The discovery left me livid.  Now I need to start all over.  The only starts I have been able to find in Japan have been totally run of the mill varieties of plants that I can buy equivalent produce at the grocery store.  Why would I ever grow boring tomatoes?  Well, I wouldn't. 

So, now I'm back at square one.  Argh!  I have been taking care of these seedlings since the beginning of January.  Now I am super behind. 

I was so upset I came home and took a nap.  I just wanted to sulk like a small child.  Why?  Why?

Tomorrow I shall start again.  Hopefully, I'll have found a better attitude by them.  One more reminiscent of my mood this morning.